There's a restaurant in the town in which I grew up that has delicious gourmet burgers with fries for only $5 on Tuesdays. The last time we ate there, I showed the kids a river nearby where I used to play (and fish for bullheads) when I was a kid.
The next time we ate there, the kids asked if they could go play in the river again.
When they went in the river, I went down into it, too, for a while. I stepped out onto one rock with my right foot, and I knew just which rock I should step onto with my left foot. It's the way I always made my way out into the river.
Very few things stay the same for 30 years. So often in my life I'd felt thrown off because I'd expected something to be the way I remembered it, but it would be different, or I would be different. It's happened so much in the last several years, that it was remarkable to step out on to the same rocks, in the same order, as I had many times as a kid.
The kids made their way down river. And, I was happy to see them enjoying it, just as I had.
But, when they got a little ways away, I climbed up onto the bank to follow them. I was feeling like such a responsible mom, remembering how I always played without any supervision.
I overheard Luke say, "Mom's following us," and I thought how much comfort he must find in knowing his mom was nearby. Then Anna followed Luke's gaze and commented, "Creeepy."
























