For those of you who don't know, there are titles of books by one of our favorite children's authors, Mo Willems. These are the books which feature Knuffle Bunny, who has become our girls' most adored loveys, which neither of them can be apart from. I should have heeded the "caution" Willems gives in his first book, and perhaps not been so thrilled that Kate had found a lovey. But, I was indeed thrilled, I love that Kate has something to take with her and bring her comfort. And, since Kate got Anna a Knuffle Bunny, I absolutely love that I can put Anna down to sleep, hand Knuffle Bunny to her, and leave the room without her crying. What I've learned, though, is that there is a downside to these loveys.
I'm tired. I have been tired for the better part (or the worst part) of the last three years. Kate wasn't sleeping through the night when Anna was born, and Anna isn't sleeping through the night now. I dearly value my sleep.
Monday night Dave was on call, so he slept on the futon, which allowed for Kate to have the special treat of sleeping in my bed with me. I put her in bed before me, so that I could spend some alone time with Dave. Kate had declared she was going to read books, wait for me to come in, and not go to sleep until I came. She was exhausted, however, and fell asleep reading the books. I was also exhausted that day, and I didn't do a final organization of the playroom, which I almost always do.
When I went to bed, I fell right to sleep and was having a beautiful night's sleep until I heard a loud, panicked exclamation, "Where's Knuffs?!"
I looked at the clock. 1:46. I knew there was no convincing her to just go back to sleep. Since she's gotten Knuffle Bunny, she's never fallen asleep without him, not even in the car. I first searched all the blankets, sure that she must have had him when she went to bed. I then turned on the light and searched all the blankets again, under the pillows, and moved on to under the bed. I then left the room and searched in her room, the hallway, the upstairs bathroom, and went downstairs to search the kitchen, playroom, living room, and even the study, trying not to wake Dave. While I searched, aside from thinking of how completely tired I was, I wondered how Knuffle Bunny could possibly be anywhere besides where Kate was sleeping. I couldn't imagine that she'd fallen asleep with out him. So, I went back into our room, and did a third search of the bed and surrounding area.
By this point Kate was wide awake and in a great mood. "Look!" she exclaimed, noticing the Knuffle Bunny book by which she'd fallen asleep, "There's Trixie! She's showing you that Knuffs is green and blue. Now you can find him!"
I left the room again, and while completing a second search of the whole house, thinking of how much bigger it seems in the night, I formulated a plan.
Anna was sound asleep. She is a light sleeper, but I could certainly sneak in there and steal her Knuffle Bunny without her noticing. She does fall asleep with Knuffle Bunny, but when she woke up to nurse at 4:30, I could sneak it back from Kate and return it to her so she could hold it while she falls back to sleep.
Steal your baby's lovey? I yelled at myself,
What's wrong with you? But, I argued, trying to stifle the guilt, she doesn't need it now. Desperate times, desperate measures.
What about when Kate wakes in the morning, again missing her Knuffle Bunny? I planned what I'd say, "What? That stinker is missing again!?"
After the second search of the house was futile, I decided to go through with the plan. I headed for my bedroom to turn out the light. Each Knuffle Bunny's tag is labeled, Kate's with "Kate" and Anna's with "A." I'd gotten sick of turning the Knuffle Bunnies to readthe tags, and I'd wanted to cut the tag off Annas and leave the tag on Kate's so I could see whose was whose at a glance. But Dave had argued that Kate loves to read the tags, so I'd left them on. I was so glad for that now. This way there'd be no way for her to tell in the dark.
I turned out the light, told Kate there was one more place I had to look, and snuck into Anna's room. I made it without her stirring. As I walked back to my room, I smoothed out the fur in the places where it was crunchy from Anna sucking on it.
As it's always my policy not to lie to the girls, I carefully chose my words when I got into bed, "Oh, Kate, look what I found!" and handed her the imposter Bunny. I lay down next to her, 2:04, and just started to think how wonderful it was to get back into bed, when she declared, "What's the tag say?" Again, carefully choosing my words, I replied, "Oh, honey, what do you think it says?" "I can't see. It's dark," she replied. I knew where this was going, so I prepared to act shocked when I finally had to turn on the light. And, yes, that light went on. No "Case of Mistaken Identity" for Kate tonight.
After acting shocked, I took Anna's Bunny and laid it outside her door, not wanting to risk entering her room again, on my way to again look downstairs. I didn't know how a third search of the house would be any different, so I broke my "on call" policy and woke Dave up. He, in less than two minutes, found the Bunny in the bin of stuffed animals in the playroom. My mother had been over that day, and must have helped clean up the stuffed animals. I hadn't "reorganized" as I usually do, and in the middle of the night I hadn't thought about that.
So, Kate checked that tag, and happily lay back down to go back to sleep. I also lay down, 2:09, exhausted, but too awake from running around for the last 25 minutes to sleep. I lie there awake for some time, and when I started to settle back into sleep, I glanced at the clock, 2:34. I was so thankful that Anna never wakes me up before 4:00 anymore. I know I'll get at least an hour and a half chunk of sleep before I'd have to nurse her. I drifted off to sleep.
"Waaaaaaa!" I realize it's coming from the monitor. I glance at the clock. 2:38. I'm confused. Anna never wakes up at this time anymore. Why would she be crying? Ohh... Arghhh!
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Kate was greatly relieved at the reunion.

Anna peacefully returned to sleep after the theft was rectified.